Bringing Hope and Healing through Rescued Horses – Kim Meeder Part 1
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Bringing Hope and Healing through Rescued Horses – Kim Meeder Part 1

October 19, 2019


and these kids weren’t coming for what
they could get the horses weren’t rideable they weren’t trained they
weren’t strong enough they were coming for what they could give and we started
seeing that the children in their efforts to make the horses stronger that
the children themselves started getting stronger and healing started happening
between their hearts just as it did in my own heart welcome to the focus on the family
broadcast helping families thrive Kim welcome back to focus it is so good to
be here thank you you again your smiling face that effervescent spirit the Lord
has put in you you know I want to start with that foundation because you and I
share that that orphan label and years was a tragic story not that any orphan
story isn’t tragic but yours had such pain with it let’s start in that place
that begin to shape who you are today and how God has used you as a nine year
old girl what was happening I would begin by saying we serve an awesome God
amen and what the world views is tragic Jesus Christ uses for his glory and so
often almost every life will be called to walk through the fiery furnace and
and we dread it and we fear it and we our natural instinct is to pray oh god
no please no please I don’t want to walk through that and yet it is when we step
into the flame of adversity that we meet Jesus Christ face to face if we will
trust him enough to walk through that’s when we meet him and that’s where so
many stories of hope and Jesus begin my story of knowing Jesus Christ and the
hope that only he can bring started at nine years of age and at nine years of
age I would look at my mother and think oh my goodness you’re the most beautiful
woman in the world I want to grow up and be just like you and I knew in my
child’s mind that my my dad was a superhero there was nothing he couldn’t
do and from my child’s perspective he wore a cape and could fly and I grew up
in the castle of their combined love and it was during that season of time that I
remember my dad’s best friend coming to my little grade school and picking me up
and he didn’t say a word and picked up my two older sisters and all three of us
are lined up in the back seat of his car and we just started to drive this very
familiar road to my grandparents house in utter silence
and during that drive I remember having this choking feeling that ah
I can’t breathe I can’t breathe I know that something terrible has happened and
no one will tell me what it is and I looked up at my older sister’s face who
was sitting next to me and she was just streaming silent tears she knew too and
we drove the long distance to my grandparents house and down the long
driveway and I could see all these cars parked all over the place and you could
literally feel grief streaming from the house mhm and I remember thinking I
don’t want to go in there don’t make me go in and just being grabbed by my
shoulders and pushed in through the door into the arms of a woman that I
recognized but didn’t know and this woman was crying so hard the house was
filled with grieving people and crying and wailing and she was one of them and
she finally just kind of put her hands up and said I’m sorry I don’t know how
to tell you this but your father has just murdered your mother and taking his
own life I’m sorry yeah and I’m nine I remember looking at her and my first
thought was my dad loves my mom and he loves me and he would never do that liar
and I just hit her in the chest with both of my hands and broke out of her
arms and just ran out the back door and I remember I was running through an
orchard and just falling face-first down in the dirt and and crying and screaming
and gagging and inhaling dirt and retching and holding onto handfuls of
dirt in this little girl’s effort to hold on to the memory of her parents and
and finally I could hear like these animals to hounds and didn’t even
recognize the sound of my own voice and I started to say Jesus help me Jesus
help me I need you now Jesus I need you now and at that time in my life I didn’t
even know who Jesus was I think I only have remembrance of going to church
twice before that time and all I knew is I think he’s the guy on the cross and
what I now know is that it doesn’t matter who you are how you were raised
what culture you were raised in the the truth of God’s Word in Romans 10 is true
today everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved
and that salvation is as near as your lips in your heart and if you confess
with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that he is the son
of God you will be saved no ands ifs or buts you will be saved
and what I now know is that as I cried out to the only one who could redeem
this broken heart that the Lord of all creation came down and crossed the
expanse of heaven and knelt in the dirt beside a breaking child and took the
hand that was reaching up to him and my Jesus hasn’t never let go Wow he has
never let go and I didn’t know the fullness of that moment then all I knew
in that moment is I’m not alone and there’s there’s an ignition of hope in
this heart that is saying you will get through this because I am with you and
that day my sisters and I moved in with my grandparents who had just lost their
daughter and in the days that followed I knew that going to my parents funeral
were images that I did not ever wish to have in my mind and I told my Blessed
grandmother I’m not going and in her great wisdom five feet of concrete just
her love and wisdom the older I get the more wise she becomes and she just
looked at me and said honey you don’t have to go and so I opted instead to
ride horses with my two cousins and in my mind I was gonna just gallop away and
never come back I lost everything everything and in my effort to run away
I ran right into the all-consuming love of Jesus Christ in between his love and
the friendship of a little horse with crooked front legs this wild child’s
heart was redeemed that is such a powerful story I mean
right there I can see why our listeners love you Kim
because of that conviction and that desire to please the Lord to live with
the Lord live by the Lord’s standards all of it
it’s so so terrific and you know I can only imagine someone’s listening who’s
in their valley that was you in the dirt Amen in that orchard and there’s
something about the Lord’s spirit when he it’s like the radar is up that holy
radar and I think particularly with children that brokenness grieves his
heart I mean Jesus cried with Lazarus is death he feels emotion he note were made
in His image and I just think when when the throne room is filled with that news
of a nine-year-old girl a nine-year-old boy
whatever the circumstance I just think his spirit responds and says she is mine
amen and comes in and grabs you by the collar
amen and says walk with me child I love you but you’ve got to say yes yes he
will not pull you he will walk with you and that’s the difference in that fiery
furnace where what the enemy means for destruction if we will call on his name
in that inferno it is Jesus Christ himself well who will turn that into the
very moment the very fulcrum of our life as it tips toward his saving grace when
we enter that fiery furnace we think we’re going to die and if we call on his
name that in fact becomes the ignition of a new life in him only Jesus can do
that you’re correct I believe it’s Psalms 34 that says Jesus
Christ that that God is near to the brokenhearted and he saves those who are
crushed in spirit and which one of us will not walk through this life and be
that person brokenhearted crushed and spirit every single one of us and God’s
Word is true it is true Kim right now I mean folks are listening and
maybe in their point of despair yeah and I want to make sure people know you can
call us here at focus for counseling boy I tell you the the supporters that help
focus go have enabled us to be able to afford to pay for those counselors there
so call us we’ll put resources in your hands we’ll do whatever we can do to
help you in this moment and be able to hopefully throw you that lifeline so you
can come out of that pit empowered by the Spirit of God like you work him as a
nine year old girl such a powerful and beautiful story I love that Kim now we
got a I’m not sure but we need to transition into horses and what you and
your husband Troy have done but man keep the fervor I know you will what you were
riding horses there at the ranch that day you got the news and the funeral of
your mom I mean that seems to be a part of your life in a unique way
what connected spiritual healing yes and horses in your mind and how has that
become your passion in that season of grief I remember sitting on the bus
riding home from my little grade school and and just staring at the door and
just open the door open the door let me out I’ve got to go and I would run all
the way home and I’d be throwing things down running through the front door and
and just right through the house out the back door down the hill to where my
little horse was because at that time in my life I knew that there was no safer
place to cry than on my horses neck and that she never said I’m sorry you’re not
pretty enough you’re not smart enough you don’t have the right clothes or the
right friends in her wordless horse way her ears would go up and her head would
swing around and she’d say there you are I’ve been waiting for you and I would
get on her back with just a halter and gallop and gallop like a crazy child and
jumping creaks and ducking under branches and jumping logs in this
child’s effort of outrunning all the pain that was trying to crush my heart
and I always imagined that it wasn’t fast enough to keep up and somehow it
would get lost in the woods behind me and it was in those
moments that my heart felt safe enough to start listening to the truth of God’s
Word that I was reading at that time in my life every day even as a child every
day and I was not saved by a horse I was saved by Jesus Christ on the back of a
horse I couldn’t have known then what God was going to do met and married my
husband we moved to Bend Oregon we bought the only piece of property we
could afford which was so destroyed no one else wanted it it was a night when I
say destroyed it was being mine for cinder which is basically volcanic glass
they crushed it and put it on the roads for traction and so we literally bought
a hole in the ground and to watch these former owners the day that we signed the
papers it was like watching Laurel and Hardy and quick have him sign it before
they change their mind oh my gosh it was so ruined that there was no trees no
grass no dirt we were so broke we didn’t even have dirt so we started going to
all the ranches around and asking for organic material to put on the floor of
the stone to help the property recover it doesn’t matter how barren property is
or horses are or human hearts are before Jesus Christ
you can always recover always when you turn to Him and so we started filling
this property with anything organic that we could find and then we were so broke
my husband was a landscape contractor and he started bringing home all the
trees that were unacceptable because they weren’t perfect or they had been
bulldoze for parking lots or they were broken and they were flat sided or
blocking someone’s view and we started planting all these trees on the property
and we did this for two years and then in 1995 we rescued our first two horses
from a ranch down the road for those that don’t know the horse world-wide
does a horse need to be rescued what’s the condition of the horse what does
that look like to non animal people horses carry such a special place in the
heart God of all the animal kingdom Jesus
Christ has chosen a horse to come back on and they are precious to him and when
it comes to rescue you and this is just my personal sense is that how much the
enemy attacks them because he hates them because Jesus victorious reentry is
going to be on a horse and in this realm of men horses suffer greatly and they
suffer through starvation because they’re large animals that eat a lot and
they suffer through battery and abuse because they’re large animals and people
fear them and don’t understand them what they don’t understand is they are one of
the meekest animals on the planet and the the Hebrew word for meekness comes
from a stallion under control and that this powerful powerful 1200 pound animal
will let the smallest child guide and direct them and so in the early years of
the ranch we rescued our first two horses one of which was missing a third
of her normal body weight 350 pounds if you did the math on yourself you would
die this horse horses have a chest in front legs
this horse her front legs were so close together I could not put my closed fist
between her knees oh my goodness she she was so emaciated and the second horse I
saw the former owner beat so badly I was there I saw it with my own eyes he beat
her so badly that he had to call a vet to come and sew up her face my horse has
an 8-inch scar between her eyes to this day and those were the first two horses
to come to the ranch which was a hole in the ground they might have I mean
pasture fires probably thought they needed to be risky for us and yet we had
a Corral and a hitching post and and we had a boulder the size of my truck with
two halters on it and in God’s hands that was enough we started to see
children coming and they weren’t children we even knew we were
volunteering at a youth group and apparently we had shared with some of
the kids that we had rescued two horses and if you’d like to come out on how
Plus feel free so that was the very beginning right there we had no clue
what God was going to do and apparently they told their friends and their
friends and their friends and pretty soon all these kids are coming up the
driveway and they all looked exactly alike and their heads were down their
eyes were down their shoulders were forward no eye contact and they’d be
wringing their little hands and we heard that you had some horses that needed
some help and we were wondering if we could come and help they wouldn’t even
look at me they too were that broken horse they too were looking for a herd
to belong to that was bigger than they were and that they could feel loved and
feel accepted and drawn into something that was safe and these kids weren’t
coming for what they could get the horses weren’t rideable they weren’t
trained they weren’t strong enough they were coming for what they could give and
we started seeing that the children in their efforts to make the horses
stronger that the children themselves started getting stronger and healing
started happening between their hearts just as it did in my own arm him to put
particular details for that Mason and Chad were two boys that you mentioned in
your book yes describe their story they came out with a school group that was
for children who were falling through the cracks
and I remember the school bus driving up onto the ranch and all the kids piling
out and there was so much excitement and anticipation and I was aware that there
were two young boys in the back of the bus and the their counselor had to ask
them to come forward and they came out and they were all dressed in black and
all the chains and all the bracelets and and and they got out of the bus and one
of them looked at me and he all but poked me in the chest and and said what
are you gonna do about us horses are so dumb and I remember just saying my
prayer was nothing more than Jesus lead Jesus lead you know their hearts you
know where they’re coming from and what I know is that when people project a
very hard and tough front it’s like tissue paper and right
behind that is a little boy that is saying please don’t reject me I’m gonna
reject you first because I don’t want to be rejected and hurt one more time
please don’t reject me and I could feel that and so I kind of ignored their
posturing and I just said hey you guys we just rescued this horse and and her
story’s terrible it’s terrible she was so badly neglected that she aborted a
full and they didn’t even know about it for days and they came out to feed her
and she’s standing over the body of her infant and then they gave her to us and
she’s just grieving she’s lost everything and she’s so alone she’s just
her eyes are so inward even though she’s in a herd of horses she stands alone and
I just need your help to reach her can you help me and their hands are shut
down in their pockets and the little shoulders yeah whatever
and so I went and got this beautiful tiny little quarter horse mare and
brought her out and and I brought the pan of grain and I put it right in their
lap and I said just put your hands on her and let her eat in your presence and
then I kind of circled at a distance and I could see them just putting their
hands on this horse and you could see that a little harden face is changing
and that that that furrow between their eyes leaving and one of the boys left
and I came over to the other one and and he just had his hand on her cheeks and
and before I came he had a palm on each of this horse’s
cheeks as she was eating and he just had his forehead against hers and I came
over and I sat next to him and I didn’t say anything I just put my hand on his
back and just did the mama rub between his shoulders and he kind of looked at
me and gave me this little smile and he really wanted to put my his head on my
shoulder yeah but because his friends were there he didn’t but I could feel
that and all that chaining this that he came with all those chains were
broken in that moment we’re broken little boy was genuinely loved by a
broken little girl and for him to recognize that his love matters and it
has a place in this world and that depression and oppression and anxiety
always originate in the same place and that’s a hyper focus on everything we
think we lack instead of everything we already have and to turn that focus
around into don’t you know little man your love matters and you can make a
difference in this world and it begins right now
Kim it just keeps coming I don’t want to stop I’m out of tissue though we got to
resupply our tissue here we got to have you back next time
tomorrow and continued the discussion and I just feel the power of the Spirit
is working in people listening right now and again if you need help no matter
what your situation you might be that fourteen-year-old boy or girl and we
want to be there for you certainly mom and dad we want to be there for you too
call us if you need help if what Kim has shared with you today applies to your
life that you feel like you’re at the bottom
and you don’t feel the Lord call us and let us help you understand spiritually
where things are at it’s our privilege to do it and this is what God calls us
to do as believers is to carry one another’s burdens and we do count it a
privilege to do that Kim if I could ask you to pray for those folks who are
struggling right now I mean there’s no better thing to do than to pray we may
not know your name but we know you’re there and can lift
him up in prayer Jesus I speak the power and authority of your holy loving name
over everyone who is listening today and I pray Holy Spirit that you would kneel
next to them right now and they would feel your arm
around them they would experience your presence like never before as they say I
need your help will you help me now Jesus will you come in and be my Lord
and Savior I am getting off the throne of my heart my life is a mess and my
heart is so full of pain and suffering and fear and anger and unforgiveness
it’s a burden I cannot carry for another minute Jesus I give it to you I pour out
the burden of my heart before you and I hold up my heart and I ask that you
would fill it with your presence with your spirit Jesus from this day forward
I am giving my life to you and I will follow you wherever you go and I will do
whatever you tell me to do and I will live my life with steps of love that are
following the one who has redeemed this life your word is true everyone who
calls on the name of the Lord will be saved
dear Lord Jesus let today this moment right now whether people are in a field
or in an office or in their car or their kitchen right now they would just kneel
before you and put their hands up and say Jesus I need you today come in and
heal this broken life take these hands that are being raised to you we ask all
these things Jesus by the power and for the glory of your great holy
beautiful Kim come back tomorrow let’s pick it up okay all right let’s do it
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  1. Just a reminder that with God all things are possible and if it is His plan, nothing can stop it! So heart gripping!

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